"A long time ago you told me that sometimes I can't choose. You said that I might find myself on the wrong side for the right reasons! Is this what you meant?! The only way to save so many people is by doing this?! You're insane!", my teenage voice sounded distressed and angry.
"Right now it's out there Saba, building power to overthrow the balance that has been forever. We need to have the strength to face the mistakes of our parents, and if that means that we need to do things unmentionable; then we do it. We do it for people who won't have a chance. We do it for people who haven't lived their lives. We make this thing fear for its life and then we kill it with out mercy." Patrick almost sounded like he cared for people.
"I can't! I just can't. I see them looking up to me with their pleas, those scared eyes and I can't. My hands start shaking and the air grows cold. I know it's out there, but my hands won't listen to me. I know it's the right thi-"
"No!" Patrick’s voice became louder as everything around me came in to focus.
Patrick stood in front of my teenage self holding her shoulders. They stand in front of those double doors again, a knife laying on the floor at their feet.
"It's never the right thing. What we're doing is horrible, but we do it because it's the only way. The last resort."
A silence fell over the hallway and as he stared into the younger-me's face, I swore his face blinked away again, revealing the horribly twisted visage beneath.
"I can help you kill our parents." Patrick spoke calmly and silent. A tear rolled down his cheek and splashed on the floor. "If you want to do the right thing, I can help you."
"Please help me."
I felt a burning sensation in the pit of my stomach as the scene in front of me faded away, leaving me and my younger self looking at each other.
"You came. I knew you'd come." Younger me smiled.
“Yes, it's good to see you again." A voice behind me spoke.
The child version of myself, the one that had brutally murdered my parents stood behind me. Her clothing drenched in blood.
"Patrick knew I couldn't do it, so he brought out the side of me that could. I went to sleep . . . "
". . . while I did the dirty deeds." Darker-me continued.
"But why? How?" I cried.
"We aren't sure. The door remains locked and hidden in your Soulscape. It's something horribly bad. Something involving Ben, John, Crystal, and all of the others. They can survive, but they need you."
"But I've just met them and you're saying that we're all connected. How does that make sense?"
“We're not saying it.", the evil me smiled and stepped up to the nicer me. She reached out and grasped her hand, "You are."
I felt my body get torn apart as everything went dark.
"Wake up, you fool girl! Wake up!"
It was Merlin. I was back. I wish Ben was here.